it's not like i'm still caught up in the past nor i'm trying to reminisce about it. just being with you...that's what it's all about. you can totally trust me. sorry if i made you feel that way on some level. but i didn't mean to say those things. i got all emotional unnecessarily for no good reason and i might have said or rambled something that i'd probably regret. but as you know like other guys i'm not perfect but trying to be as perfect as i can be, and at the same time trying to be as true to myself and to you as i can be. this is the way i am,, who i am..and you hold no punches, which i really respect. i'll try to do my best to earn some respect from you :D almost forgot, life is BEAUTIFUL. period!